Changes, Changes

HELLO ALL!!! ha and to think I had dropped of the face of xanga! Nope just no time to type my life story on here! So here is my summer in a nut shell! Strange things are happening to me!!! NO JOKE... I've been rethinking almost EVERYTHING that I have been doing for the past 4 years!! God has definitely put an obstacle in my way... It's a very good obstacle --Well at least I think so. Arthur and I are great...well except for that I think we aren't suppossed to be together anymore. I have been struggleing with this for the past year and I think God has finnally revealed himself to me. I love Arthur and his family so much it's going to be so hard to tell him that God has a better plan for both of us and it's not with each other...SCARY sentence I just wrote!!! But these last couple of weeks at church have just been great! I've worshipped better and I feel like my prayers and stopping at the ceiling. I actually want to learn more about God instead of feeling like I should be. I have such a controlling nature as we all know and letting go of this situation has been the toughest for me. I've prayed that God would just take it and do with what he wants but I never could really let go...So over the course of church and the "other" things happening I feel like I'm where I'm supposed to be. WITH GOD. God puts strange people and things in our lives for a reason. I don't know if this person is in my life for good or if it is just God's way of getting me to realize that I'm not with the right person. Arthur is a great man and i love him very much and we are great friends and maybe we will end up together but for now it's not God's will for my life. Well hopefully I'll write later.. Love ya and Keep praying